wonderful God

God has been so real to me recently. He speaks to me in so many ways, through bible, books, people, problems and blessing. it been quite some time that i feel so good everyday.
it really helps to say positive things to yourself though u might be in tough situations.

in the past, sometimes i feel so upset for no reason that i feel so down and all the negative thoughts start to come to my mind. then i did nothing to stop them ,i will just wait for it to pass as it happen to me every week at least once a week or i will just watch movies, read bible, listen to songs to cheer myself up. usually when i did read bible and listen to songs, it will go away for awhile but later the emotional feeling will come back again to me.. so i cry quite a number of times in a year for no reason. i thinks God has lot of my bottles of tears as the book of psalm said that He keep all my tears in bottle and it really cheer me up to think that as God is so concern about me and He is always there for me that He is able to keep my tears in bottle so i am not afraid to cry as everytime after i cry, i feel relieve as it cleanses my mind and heart.

but now, when it comes, i choose to speak positive words and promises from the bible to remind myself that i don have to let the emotional feeling take over me . they might come but it has no control over me . God has. He is control of everything and He is my God who never leave me and never fails me.

why do i need to worry ? why do i need to b sad ? No, i don have to since He always bless me:

-in my studies as God has bring people to help me and help me find resources that i need for my assignments. He always give me peace and wisdom to study and sit for the exams. He even gives me excellent results that sometimes i thinks that i dont deserve them as i am not a smart student so sometimes i am wondering whether should i tell people about my results as they will always think the reason i has good results because i am smart but when i am not. it is God's grace that i have amazing results.

- giving me a good family especially my siblings. my siblings and i are very close that we enjoy everytime we are together. my sister who is there to listen to my problems when i need her . my elder bro and younger bro who always ready to help me whenever i need their helps.

-giving wonderful friends to me during my uni life. the times in uni that i enjoy the most are being with my friends: my coursemates, collegemates, my perkeb's friends, my church's friends, and seniors who are nice to me and willing to help me and give me good advises. i really thank God for them and placing them in my path of life.

- and i believe that He will give me someone who is right for me one day as my soulmate. so i dont need to worry about bgr now..i just need to wait patiently for His divine appointment and times.

i praise God for everything. and i am so glad that i learn to deal with my emotional feeling.