i need to wait

my heart tells me to confess to him but my mind tells me not to...



i have this fight in me during most of my free times and my exam period ( is tough to study when my head is thinkin bout this).



the reasons that my feeling tells me to confess are:

1.i afraid that if i don tell, i feel that i might be missing somthing or i will reget later if i don tell him.

2.i wan him to respon to me, to know whether did he like me or not. if he tells no, then i will b "sei sum". i will have reason to not think bout him any longer.



reasons that my mind gave me :

1.not ready for a relationship

2.i know that he din like me as i give him hits indirectly that i like him so wat is the point of confess ? to let him hurt me ? NO way...

3.i don plan to get marry so soon so i shouldnt b dating now as i believe in "don start dating until u r plan to get marry".

4.he is not financially secure

5.i need to focus on God and study. if i have bf, 4 sure i will not have much times for God and study.

6.f he say no, then i might lose a good fren as he might avoid me.

7. there is other better guy out there. so y do i need to rush in this bgr ?

conclusion :2 vs 7 .. weak cognitive dissonance .. so i shouldnt tell him but one day, i almost wan to confess to him...how silly i m.. not a rasional person :P

in the end, i think let it goes naturally ..if he is my partner of life then somehow we will be together. but if no, then no point to start relationship with him.. i CHOOSE TO WAIT FOR THE RITE GUY :D