wat i need to do ?

i subconsciously thinkin about relationship nowadays.i don wan to think about it but i keep thinkin about it..it disturb me so much.. my principle keep changing..i cant focus..

wen i enter uni, i don mind gettin involved in bgr but i never wan to get marry..i have no confidence in marriage for certain reasons. but i do not want get involved in sex outside marriage. i stil remember wen i read the book about waiting for ur partner of life, i love the below article -'waiting' so much. but somehow for me that time, is ok to have bf just for fun..cuz i think i will regret if i din confess to some1 i like..so don need to think bout future. who knows wat wil happen in future.

then after i go to a seminar about christian dating, i try to stick to these principles: 1. don start to date until u plan to get marry. 2. make wise decision instead of emotional one. so i decided not to get involved in bgr , i wan to focus on God and study in three years in uni.

but now, i have problems with focusin on these principles. i don know y.. but i keep thinkin bout the guy i like . i know that he dislike me. so i try to avoid him but i will see him at least once a week. so i din know wat to do...yet i stil don wan to get involved in bgr...mayb cuz i don trust that bgr in uni will last til forever . as most of the guys in uni are not mature and r not financially stable at all. and most of us will change after graduating..

i reli hope i can forget that guy asap and focus on God and study.